“I'm jealous of my friend's success and I hate myself for it”

What could be going on

Envy: Fits if their gain hurts because it's something you want; it can point to your own wishes.

Social comparison: Check whether you are using them as a yardstick in an area that matters to you.

Shadow: Could be disowned ambition; envy often shows what you want but won't admit.

Contingent self-worth: Fits if your worth rises and falls with how you rank.

Self-compassion: Check whether self-attack makes it worse; envy is ordinary and can be held kindly.

Also said as

• why do I feel bitter when my friends do well
• I can't be happy for my best friend
• envy of a close friend is eating me up
• I resent my friend's new job and feel awful
• jealous of my friend
• I envy my friend's success